(WARNING! VENTING, DIRECTED AT SOMEONE) thats the way the condom rips :\ "happy birthday ashlee."

well i guess I'm just a bit insane.

i felt really happy on Thursday night but since then not so much. i got a lot of Hugs and cuddles and may sound gay in saying this but they really make my day. i thought the same thought again, i had an amazing friend who i really liked and she liked me too is what i thought. the morning i knew things were gonna change.

it's 3:13 am, and I'm sitting here with two people reading over my shoulder trying to get me to mention them.Ayden, i will rub your belly tonight. Ashlee read the title again.

I'm not sure what I'm saying or why i am typing this guess i need to vent.

i don't hate you for whats happened, but i can't feel the same around you for awhile. i need you to understand i wanna stay friends with you no matter what. All the things i said about you are all true. Stop doubting yourself, you are wonderful the way you are don't ever change please. I hope the hugs we give from now on still brighten our days the way they use to. those moments were like heaven for me. They made the sunshine brighter and the world slow down. When everything is back to normal i hope we don't have any more problems you are one of my best friends, Bambi please stay happy. Your friend till we die, Kieran.

It's twelve o'clock, and I need your attention
It's like the alcohol making my head spin
Your scent is the rum; the room is a bottle
Keeping me hopeless until I wake tomorrow
If tonight ever makes a difference
The way that I feel, the way that I’ll remember it
I’ll take this down until the glass remains
Swallow the words that I was meant to say

It’s a long drive back to Vegas skies
So why don’t I make one more wrong turn tonight?

So say goodnight, our first goodbye
I’ve only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We’ll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right

All of these guards they stand tall and defensive
Putting up walls around what once was innocent
They won’t let me in, but I’m stronger than that
‘Cause you stole my eyes and I’ve never looked back
Girl, last night I forgot to mention
The way that I feel, the way that I’ll remember this
When we’re this young; we have nothing to lose
Just a clock to beat and a hand to choose

It’s a long drive back to Vegas skies
So why don’t I make one more wrong turn tonight?

So say goodnight, our first goodbye
I’ve only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We’ll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right

It’s a long way down
Just fall into place and you’ll fall into me
We’ll make it out; you’ll see

So say goodnight, our first goodbye
I’ve only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We’ll stop the clock together and

Say goodnight, our first goodbye
I’ve only got forever and forever is fine
Just take your time
We’ll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right




Now i put on my mask to keep the others happy again and for the last time. Because this time the mask will merge with my own face. turning me into someone who can be happy in the darkness and live in the light forever never regretting anything.