Like i said.

i guess it's like i said life always turns around for you when its looking bad. i guess whoever reads this lately would have read all the depressing stuff i have been feeling, but i'm hoping to put all that behind me now. Last night and Today have been some of the best days in my life. Right now though i'm rethinking it. I mean yeah i like her a lot but it feels like i can't get any words out sometimes. I don't want this to be like my last relationship i felt like a real monster then. i hope shannon gets a great life and is happy, all i wanted her to feel free so i made her hate me it seemed like the only way. I don't know if it worked or not. It still affects me when i see her name or something on facebook but i guess that will stop at somepoint -_- sometimes i hate it when people randomly add other people especially when i know them >_<

I'm going to the city today with Jen from my old school we haven't really talked in ages cause we had a fight in drama one time and that kinda stopped the friendship i tried to recover it by giving her a birthday present of a photo with all our group ready for ball. that didn't work so hopefully this will, i miss those kids sometimes.

Yesterday i spent a lot of the time looking at old photos and seeing how much i changed made me smile i know i have changed for better in looks i mean damn a hair cut can do a lot. makes me a bit nervous for when i shave it all off, but hopefully i can get a lot of money for the charity.

the bruise on my head from last night is going down. i guess thats what i get for trying to take a shortcut. or maybe ttp should make their handrails stronger, least it wasn't a little kid it happened to. i have a massive lump on my head, ttp is missing a pole from it's handrail. i don't know who won.

well thats it for now. this kieran going to live my life!