Tomorrow.

Tomorrow... Its going to loads of fun /rolls eyes. I'm most probably going to get my head pounded in but i actually don't care. I just want this shit to stop. All of it. The abuse from Mr Lachlan to all my friends. The sadness my friends have because of dicks like him. Her...

Another step towards the end. Great.

Ha, Saying whats in my head. Don't read if you don't care.

Family: Lately i've been getting more distant from my family. I'm not sure if its just part of growing up or not. My mum seems to just point out the worst parts of me and what i do. Even when i try to help. It gets annoying and i get mad at her which i don't like. 'Cause she is an alright mum... for a two year old on crack. My step dad well same as ever... we don't talk.

Friends: I don't seem to get along with my friends as much as i use to which is sad. My birthday picnic the other day just made me realize it even more. As i saw all the different groups of friends, You had the "Church/Youth" group, The "School kids," The "Party people" and finally the shattered pieces of "Nerdscene." It made me realize how much i had changed. When i was with the Church people last year. I was a bubbly person always happy for no reason. While being with the School kids i was quiet but still kind of happy and bubbly around my friends. The party people i was really happy and felt like a cool kid pretty much. Now i'm with the Nerdscene and in the beginning i was quiet then happy now i'm unsure as to what i am in that group anymore.

At the recent gathering at Tom's after my birthday picnic. I was mostly outside listening to my Ipod or walking around the different groups trying to find something to do. It was pretty obvious the group had split into smaller ones. The couples, The D&Ms, The Classies. So i didn't really fit into any of these.
The D&M was over Markus' girl friend issue which i had all ready talked to him about and tried to help. Not much help it did.
The couples... Yeah.
The Classies were drinking listening to music and just laughing about stuff i didn't even understand... so not much point being there.

I feel so weird around them now. I don't feel as happy as i use to. That night did do some good for me. I laughed a lot at Matt and Joe and trying to put them to bed ahaha. It was plan old fun.

The girl: Yeah a part about her. This is so annoying. I'm kind of hating liking someone. I know that sounds crazy but, when all you can do is think about someone. Not sure if they like you or not. Smiling over them for just looking at you. It makes you worried about if they don't like you. /sigh. I had to fall for the one everyone likes. Guess that means i just have to try harder than the other people who like her. 

why?

wtf blogspot you are not playing my game no more. i'm gonna go hang with tumblr till you learn how to act properly. anyone else want to play? there's a co-op play. http://livefastloveslow.tumblr.com/

Wheres my adventure?

I know i'm not the smartest, the fastest, the strongest, the funniest, the cutest, the richest, the poorest or the coolest. but i have to be something right? During primary school i thought i was smart, during trinity i thought i was dumb, during the holidays i thought i was happy. shame that one didn't last.

I'm sick of being stuck home. Nothing to do but think of what could have been. People say that school is boring, try not being at school and just seeing you complain.

I wish my mum wouldn't put as much responsibility on me as she does. I don't know what i am doing with this school crap i have never had to deal with it before how am i meant to handle it.

I need to escape, i need an adventure, i need you again the one who really messed me up.

u___n

"Whenever i am alone i think of sad things please don't leave me alone."

well lately i have been thinking about this girl, god damn my heart ha ha. Some of you may know this feeling when you attracted to someone but you don't know why. When you aren't talking to them you randomly get a thought about them and it doesn't leave your head. You start to look at everything differently, looking through all your problems to your memories where things were better. What can i say she has my heart tied in a knot, but am i wasting my time?

Do you remember when we didn't have to remember when things were better.

I want my life to not be so confusing. I haven't been the happy i remember for a while now. I need to sort out my school problem soon. I currently don't have a school as i failed year 11 and i do not wish to repeat at trinity. I tried to enroll at Gawler High but they could not accept me as they were full and as i am from out of the area they didn't need to make room for me. I am hoping to get into Xavier or this different kind of school University Senior College in the city. If only i lived in the city. i would be the happiest kid.

I was over at my friend Markus' place today and it's hard to explain how much i miss this kid. Whenever we are together, on our own or in a group we find a way to make each other laugh. This kid brightens up my day every time. I don't know what i would do without him. We ate some food, Teased Ashlee, I took photos of myself and set them as his wallpaper, We watched a few Youtube videos, We ate tea, Watched a comedy, Hugged everyone, Then i left.

It was a good day, till i was alone to think.

/inserts new sign off.
Keep smiling and all that jazz cat stuff! HeaRt ya's (capital R because i speak funny :3)

Those times.

when you think. "When did i become a whiny little bitch?!"

Why do kids do what they do.

You ever wonder why kids want to learn karate. It's cause they believe if they do learn it, they can defend themselves from the bigger kids.

Life a lot of the time is about defending yourself, But what about those times when you can help a friend. Do you take the bullet or defend yourself.

life please sort yourself out.