Ha, Saying whats in my head. Don't read if you don't care.

Family: Lately i've been getting more distant from my family. I'm not sure if its just part of growing up or not. My mum seems to just point out the worst parts of me and what i do. Even when i try to help. It gets annoying and i get mad at her which i don't like. 'Cause she is an alright mum... for a two year old on crack. My step dad well same as ever... we don't talk.

Friends: I don't seem to get along with my friends as much as i use to which is sad. My birthday picnic the other day just made me realize it even more. As i saw all the different groups of friends, You had the "Church/Youth" group, The "School kids," The "Party people" and finally the shattered pieces of "Nerdscene." It made me realize how much i had changed. When i was with the Church people last year. I was a bubbly person always happy for no reason. While being with the School kids i was quiet but still kind of happy and bubbly around my friends. The party people i was really happy and felt like a cool kid pretty much. Now i'm with the Nerdscene and in the beginning i was quiet then happy now i'm unsure as to what i am in that group anymore.

At the recent gathering at Tom's after my birthday picnic. I was mostly outside listening to my Ipod or walking around the different groups trying to find something to do. It was pretty obvious the group had split into smaller ones. The couples, The D&Ms, The Classies. So i didn't really fit into any of these.
The D&M was over Markus' girl friend issue which i had all ready talked to him about and tried to help. Not much help it did.
The couples... Yeah.
The Classies were drinking listening to music and just laughing about stuff i didn't even understand... so not much point being there.

I feel so weird around them now. I don't feel as happy as i use to. That night did do some good for me. I laughed a lot at Matt and Joe and trying to put them to bed ahaha. It was plan old fun.

The girl: Yeah a part about her. This is so annoying. I'm kind of hating liking someone. I know that sounds crazy but, when all you can do is think about someone. Not sure if they like you or not. Smiling over them for just looking at you. It makes you worried about if they don't like you. /sigh. I had to fall for the one everyone likes. Guess that means i just have to try harder than the other people who like her.