I lied.

i was meant to make things change for me this year become a better person. that hasn't gone so well. i feel like not only have i fallen back into old habbits but they have became worse. i seem to always find a way to bring up my problems into a chat. or when someone asks me whats wrong i lie to them embarrassed about the truth. i have been thinking about the girl again. and maybe just taking a letter to her house explaining everything. mind you her house is about a 2 and a half hour trip for me >_< but i believe the end result will solve my problem with her. weither it be she chooses to forget about me. or responds to the letter the way i want her to by talking to me. i'm starting to hate love. it makes me feel out of place and on my own. why do most of my friends have to be in couples. :( i hate how emo i have become.